The day is 6th May 2020, time 8.32pm on a warm Wednesday night.
I'm finally writing again.
Just to bring everyone up to date, I am turning 30 next year, I have achieved what I originally set out to do. That is to be a manager and to own my place and I did it. Amidst the 2 month long MCO shoved at us by the pandemic we call Covid-19 I spent plenty a time pondering and decided I want different things. My goals have changed.
My world is small, filled with unexplored territory and I have every intention to change that. Human are so tiny and minuscule yet I have been given a chance to live on this magnificent planet. It is a very personal choice how one chooses to live their life but I have decided that I want to be humbled, I long to be awed, I want to go out and see the world and be a part of people's lives.
When I started the year, I set up physical goals, to have certain muscles, to do certain exercises, have higher endurance. Which are all great things that I have never achieved. And as I have more and more time to think, I realise what I actually want is to explore Earth.
Mountains have a way with dealing with overconfidence.
This was a quote I read in a documentary and it resonates with me. I have met my share of overconfident people and it has been an eye-opening experience. With such experience, I made a vow to myself that I do not and would not like to be such a person. I want to be able to enjoy solitude, not need external validation. I want to see the beautiful collision of dirt that created something magnificent in magnitude and vision. I want see it in real life and be humbled into silence.
I want to be a better version of myself. I no longer want to be the person who's live is about work, money or beauty. I wanted to need less, consume less, live a more simple life materialistically and enrich my life with experience. Experience of being a genuine part of someone's life.
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self ~ Ernest Hemingway
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