What is happiness?

For people who knew me for a long time, it would come as a surprise that I have such a sudden and dramatic change of heart. I have always been the aggressive one, efficient have been the #1 word used to describe me by clients I serviced. So wanting to let go of this lifestyle and "be humbled" seems a complete 180.

However I have been feeling it for sometime. Yes I do enjoy the aggressiveness and the feeling of accomplishment that comes with achieving milestones and with each achievement the motivation to accomplish more doubles. But there comes a time in life where one becomes jaded and start questioning the point of existence. Does it provide emotional or some would even say spiritual satisfaction?

I cannot speak for others but for myself, all this work has only highlighted the void. I will never and do not regret where my choices has brought me because I am currently doing something I enjoy very much. Writing, thinking, feeling.

There is a certain serenity that comes with doing something that brings me true joy. With writing I discovered a sense of fulfilment. I no longer feel the need to impress just anyone or make purchases to show off. I have begun starting to need less. Family and friends suddenly became more precious. The present became more solid than the past and future. Happiness can be found in simple things. Beauty seen everywhere.

Is this what happiness is?

One of the trademark of long distance relationship is how it can really make or break a relationship and I think this almost 10 years distance from writing made my fire burn brighter. My desire for it has fully consumed my being and only with writing the void seems to less significant. Life really is about learning. I am learning everyday and I hope that I will continue learning.

Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth ~ Henry David Thoreau