what makes us Human?

"u don't cry in front of the enemy" Ms. Nalena.

that was that my lecturer had to say when someone broke down in front of the person who, well, made her break down.

being labeled the weaker gender, does it give us more authority to cry and show weaknesses? or is this equal too?

i just got some bad news. cannot mention it here for some reason. but its bad and it makes me feel so weak and vulnerable. for u who don't know about me. i love putting on a tough shell so no one could ever hurt me. convenient right? well, its just protecting myself. and a girl goto learn to protect herself in this dog eat dog world.

i hate breaking down.

i hate showing signs of weakness.

i hate feeling helpless.

i hate having my protective wall penetrated just to have the person i trust cut me a wound.

its a bad feeling. helplessness.

i guess when u met problems like this when u don't know who to turn to, its a comfort to know that God is always up there to guide and accept back his lost sheep.

but i guess feeling this is also a part of God's plan right?

i think that

without Darkness, u would never know Light.

without Sadness, we would never appreciate Happiness.

without Lost, we would never recognise what we already Have.

and its a blessing to be able to feel like this.

because this make us human.

this pulls us back to Earth.

this makes us appreciate because human never learn to appreciate until it is too late.

i guess this will be an obstacle i will have to overcome.

what doesn't break me makes me stronger

right?

i hope those living in the eye of the storm will see their way through the storm and learn,

learn that we will not always have our ways,

learn to accept and to love.

have a goodnight.