Its 3.30am now. 24th Nov 2010. Im having my media plan final paper later at 2pm. And here I am, getting inspiration to blog.
As I procrastinate with the help of Facebook, I browse through my homepage. And I noticed something, that I've lost myself in some way. I dont hang with them anymore. I dont do crazy things anymore.
I used to be this spontaneous person, me and my friend would drop by Genting just because we felt like it. We would spend crazy times together holding a mug of Starbuck each standing in the cold at the wee hours in the morning. Fighting as the winner of the one who can stand the cold the longest. Those who actually know me will know that i will be the first to lose. haha.
Yes, we were wasting time. But in a way, isn't it also building yr character? For me, i loved spending time just looking at nature and feeling the quietness. Maybe thats why i wanted to live in mountains and grow coffee. I see these time as something I can look back on and know that I had that experience before. Now, I am the one behind the computer screen swooning with jealousy, ebbing off my desire by looking at photos of my friends having the fun I wished I joined in with. I didn't want to be those who will look back and think "where has my college years gone?" But where am I now?
I had my fair share of watching dramas and I have heard of people who are quite successful asking themselves is this the life they want? I mean, sure they want to be financially stable, and everything this job is giving them. But are they happy with their life?
I don't want to reach that stage in life and question myself that way. I want to live life. It's not just the money, my friend said that to me. And I believed that she saw something that i missed.
I know we change. But is this the change we want?
Everyone is having fun. I want that too. For now, I know what I want, but how long can this last?
This is so unusual. Doing something I dont like for so long. And not really realising it, till now.
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