My mum is the best!

I'm in my 13 week now. Was having a lil trauma from all the hormones raging in my body and also some emotional stuffs but I'm fine now.

I've now cut down on many of my favourite food because it makes me throw up. But it's been getting better now. The only thing is nothing with garlic, onions or too much oil.

But I'm here to remind myself in later years how my family had helped me through this time and important I've come to realise they are to me (something I've overlooked for many years).

Every morning my mum would make a cup of milo and send it up to my room. Then she would proceed to the market and get some breakfast. When she comes back, she'll send the breakfast up to my room again. After that she would sit with me and talk to me to improve my mood. I noticed that I needed these talks whenever my mum had to go somewhere and couldn't talk to me that day. Then she would busy around cleaning the house and cooking porridge or noodles for me. In the evening, she would take walks with me.

Suffice to say, I felt lonely, helpless and useless when my mum is not around. She is so strong, I wish I had some of her strength. Now, its been almost 2months since she looked after me and I am grateful for all that she has done.

Ofcourse my father and sister had been very very supportive too. My dad would give my good advises and tend to me the best he can. My sis would cheer up my day whenever and wherever. But my mum sacrificed the most and for that I love her.

Hopefully I am able to stand on my own soon and get my own things done. My mum is the best!

20th May 2011

He proposed today.

It was amazing. It was everything I dreamed of and more. Although it was somewhat spoilt by my morning sickness, it was still the best day of my life.

He planned it a whole week in advanced. Staging it where we met (in the morning), in Asia Cafe.

When I arrived, he was there, in the shirt I met him in, in jeans and tie. He looked perfect. (I didn't). He stood up to greet me and my mum. They were accomplices in creating the perfect event. We sat and waited for some time for his cousin. Finally when the cousin arrived, the MV I made of both of us started playing except the video isn't on. Then he started saying something that sounded like "well, if u are sure u want to continue with the wedding, I think i will have to ask u something".

I wasn't paying attention because from his back, his friends started walking up to the table holding something behind their back and I started pointing to them suspiciously. Then they formed a line in front of our table and taking out the things they were hiding behind their back.

Suddenly it dawned on me that he was going to propose. His friends were holding cards. It reads "Lam Shun Peng, Would u ...... marry me?" Then his friend passed him a bouquet of flowers and he went down on a knee and asked me to marry him. I said yes!

anyway, idk what else to say. that says everything. it was perfect. =)

Ps. thankyou so much for the people who made it possible.

night walks

i met my friend just a few days back.

we were reminiscent-ing.

one time back in secondary school, we participated in a kadet polis camp.

there were only 3 non-muslim participants.

one is another chick who is from another school and sticks closely to her girlfriends.

so naturally, dudes were all over us.

theres an activity called "night-walk", which let me explain, is more like night race.

we had to race each team to the destination to be the winner.

easy enough, except we had to climb up the hill, get through teachers hiding behind shadows pretending to make scary noises trying to scare us, run down to the other end of the hill, all the while trying to stay together with a leader who only thinks of winning who is trying to navigate us to the right path with a mini torchlight and the sound of the thread of your t-shirt breaking because some wimpy juniors are too scared to move. oh and did i mention that u will be the one dragging these said juniors along too?

anyway, before i knew that was it, i was tagging along my friend, as usual.

one lame dude came up and decided to hit on my friend.

he was making a lame shit talk.

"hey, im ..........., what's your name?" <<< thats lame dude

*i stood by the side, staring at him. <<< thats me

"im ............" <<< thats my friend

"oh, nice to met u. where r u from?"

"im from .............."

"oh. im from ............."

* i remember thinking, who asked? but refrained from saying so.

"hey, theres the night-walk on later. u scared?"

* before my friend could answer, i couldnt resist saying

"scared? of who? u?"

i know..im a wreaker..haha..sorry jamie..=p

Horror Movies

I have a fetish for horror movies.

And I'm not referring the "scary movies" made by the Japanese.

I'm talking real business like The Exorcist and The Omen, both, the original uncut version.

It's not that I'm not afraid of these movies. In fact, Im terrified of them!

I couldn't sleep for a week after watching The Exorcist. I was 9 then.

But it's that they possess a I-can't-take-my-eyes-off-you quality.

I have a thing about out-of-this-world things, be it nice or scary elements.

I cnt take my eyes off of them!

That's why I cnt stop staring if I see someone kissing passionately or just being very sweet together. It's not that I'm a pervert, ok!

Anyway, I hate sitting with scaredy cats while watching a scary movie. They will watch the movie by peeping through their fingers. =.=

They will yell before anything happens, which scares me!

and make me yell too!

it gives me a greater heart attack then to get shocked by the movie itself.

So, if yr a scaredy cat, pls do not watch scary movies with me. Yr not welcomed.

For me, what makes the movie scary is the story behind it, Japanese ones are more of gruesome and disgusting, not scary. But the Thailand horror movies, those are really scary!

and I think that Malaysian horror story can be as good as that because we have the basic element needed for it, the traditional-ness that makes everything scarier. But it will need a good script writer, director and actors.

Anyway, I'm supposed to come up with a sci-fi storyline. Wish me luck!

assignments!

im so tired!

what with the amount of assignments and the going out with friends, days are passing by like crazy.

life is so much better and more meaningful when you are occupied with something beneficial..=)

im doing my storyboard for animation.

i make stick people look bad, so try and imagine me drawing the environment for a society. i would not want to be the people i draw for my city..haha..

im using the song Dream by Priscilla Ahn starred in the movie Bride Wars.

chao!

wish me luck in drawing.

My Collection Of Top Love Songs

I love tuning in to love songs..=)

I listen to them when I'm feeling sleepy, feeling romantic or even when I need to relax.

(but not when I'm bored).

Most importantly, I listen to them when I missing someone.

*note that its about all kinds of love..

On my soundtrack are

- The Only Exception - Paramore

- Sway - Micheal Buble

- Fight for This Love - Cheryl Cole

- You're Still The One - Shania Twain

- Through The Rain - Mariah Carey

- In This Club - Usher ft. Beyonce

- Baby Love - Nicole Scherzinger

- What Can I Do - The Corrs

- Mama - Spice Girls

- Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

- So Close - Jon McLaughlin

- A Puro Dolor - Son by Four

- All I Want Is You - Barry Louis Polisar

- Anyone Else But You - Micheal Cera & Ellen Page

- This Will Be An Everlasting Love - Natalia Cole

- You've Made Me So Very Happy - Gloria Estefan

- Is It You - Cassie

- Because Of You -98 Degrees

- Now and Forever - Richard Marx

- Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton

- Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera

- I'll Be There for You - Bobby Vinton (Friends theme song)

- Endless Love - Luther Vandross

- I Think I'm In Love - Jessica Simpson

- 1000 Miles - Vanessa Carlton

- All I Have - Jennifer Lopez

- Ignition - R. Kelly

- I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

- Im Your Angel - Celine Dion ft R. Kelly

- You've Got Me Wrapped Around Your Finger - Beth Rowley

- When I Look To The Sky - Train

- Story of A Girl - Nine Days

- Baby I'm Yours - Artic Monkeys

- How Deep Is Your Love - Bee Gee

- Let It Be - Beatles

- Imagine - John Lennon

- Massachusetts - Bee Gees

I'm listening to it as I write..

hmmm...I'm going to sign out and enjoy my music.

see u soon!

ps. cats are down my kitchen, out doing their thang..=/

ME time

I've been spending some time thinking of what I want in life. And its decided.

I want to write!

I would like to write for a living!

I would like to write about travelling, about what I've seen, about my opinion or simply, just writing. My way.

And I know that not many companies will hire or even take in someone who do not have anything to show. When they say they like writing. Thats why I decided to blog more often.

Well, I didnt actually notice it by myself.

Paul helped.

And he is still away, countdown is at 21 more days.

Hopefully he will be able to get back earlier..Miss him much.

Just sent in my Mtk stuff..

Shun, out!